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A Matter of Choice

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To be a mother

Sometimes

We have to give up our own.

In the dark hall

nothing but bare feet

move toward a baby's cry.

A moth flutters to light.

In solitude we all bend in silence squatting in grass huts

nestled in hi-rises

hunched in tenement rooms.

At first we spring like puppets,

mimic seasoned gestures.

Weeks pass.

Pantomime

dissolves

Into strokes and lines

 ́signs converging with new power

nimble, primed, unique to ourselves.

Sometimes

the puppet cuts the strings

pulls down the purdah*

beats the drum!

Against great odds the puppet regains her strength.

She looks up

hooded figures malinger

muffled voices

Who can count

ominous

from behind masked faces.

the number of untold, unshared

sorrows

of those who became mothers

out of submission

Who can say

hunger and

loneliness

chains?

accident

I am here because I was wanted?

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Later

the truth may crystallize in a moment:

Sisters visit mother, a sumptuous meal And too much wine.

The wrong thing said, a quarrel ensues.

She could have done better than raise ungrateful daughters. She had her

dreams.

A family gathers at Christmas.

One daughter, single and 34

Her woman lover in Cincinnati

Her own mother

deferred.

the gifted one

blology put aside, thesis unfinished.

A labcoat hangs in the attic closet.

She glares at her daughter.

Trinkets dangle from the tree on thin, transparent threads.

Another visits her mother in Pittsburgh

Industrial widow

a bird, an empty nest,

an apron catches her tears.

The pension severed.

The widow rocks, counting years of raising ten children,

as suicide tugs at her skirt.

The truth crystallizes in a moment

Or else it ripens in time.

Either way it compels you to

Defy the puppeteer

Overthrow the one above you

As if choices

were mere favors to be

Snatched away.

pulling strings

Marionettes are made of plaster and wood.

Moths dance in the summer night, dazzled by the light.

-By Carol Epstein Copyright March 1981

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